Hey there! Serene here.

New Year, new….you? Naww! Same you! New desire to change SOMETHING though. Sometimes it’s easy to say, ‘I’m going to find my motivation’ or ‘I’m going to find my “why” before doing anything. Before auditioning for that show. Before starting that business. Before signing up for lessons. Some would even say that if you don’t have a deep and meaningful “why” that all your efforts will be fruitless.

I said that about my Youtube channel this last fall, 2022. I decided to take a break. Much needed break might I add. Creating content for Youtube is a never ending process and if you’re not careful it can take you down roads you may not realize you are taking. For example, when I started making reaction videos, it started with an inspiration to react to a well known video that was going around. It was a blast to make, pretty easy to do and once I got it published, it began getting view after view! FINALLY! A video I made was making some real traction! It was the first time ever for me and it felt GREAT. Especially when online viewers started to comment, chat and even disagree with me on the video. That part was a surprise but I allowed it. I allowed all views and comments to flow forth. So I started making more reaction videos. I got requests from my subscribers. I listened to them and started reviewing the most requested videos. It became a rabbit hole of reaction videos.

While I did enjoy some musical artists that truly inspired and WOW’d me, I began to feel burnt out. I lost my motivation and made some reaction videos that felt fake to me. I hated the music, but heaven help me I could not say that I hated it! Strong words Serene! My viewers would be so upset if I reacted to a video I truly hated and I would too. Why put something on the Internet that wasn’t bringing SOME kind of value to your channel? Well, I did and it did not take me long to stop doing that. I could just FEEL it wasn’t me. It wasn’t the kind of content I wanted to created and had no passion for it. I will say, some of my favorite artist to listen to and react to have been, Felix Irwan, Dimash, Aurora and Alip Ba Ta. Those artist light me up! I love them!

I took a break from Youtube to “find my motivation” and my “why” for why I created and would eventually continue to create videos for my Youtube channel. As of today, my channel has 40.7K subs. It feels like a great success and feat for me. I feel proud of the hard work I’ve put into it thus far. BUT I am not done. No I am not. You know what I found out on my break? I couldn’t find my motivation. None. I still did not have a “why” for my channel and did not feel motivated in the slightest to create content. Hello motivation? Excuse me? WHERE ARE YOU???

You know what I did learn? I had a DESIRE to be motivated? Magic fix? Nope! From past experiences with, em!, running, I had learned that motivation came from the DOING. Not the wanting to do. So….from the small seed of WANTING to create content and valuable information for my audience, I started. Do I feel motivated? Not particularly. Do I have massive inspiration for what content I am making. Hahaha! No. But I KNOW that through the DOING I can FIND 1. momentum 2. motivation 3. inspiration 4. community.

Enjoy the video below as I expand on these thoughts and MORE! Thanks for being here.